What do you do when people completely ignore you?
This has been a rather annoying trend and it's been getting on my nerves. Look, if you have got a problem with me, come out and say it. I would rather have people come out and tell me I suck rather than have them constantly ignore me. So where has this issue been most prevalent? The Latex Fetish art community. If I had a dollar for every time I've been ignored, I could go out and buy myself a couple of used games at game stop. That may not sound like a lot, but it is. And if anyone would like to tell me to shut up and point out my issues, I have beaten you to the punch:
11,000 page views - do I deserve itHonestly, I don't think I deserve this many page views. Or at least I don't deserve them yet. I've been looking back on my DA career and it is abysmal. Now I may be sounding like a pessimist, but here me out. I made a list of reasons why I don't deserve the page views yet:
1. I'm pretty sure the majority of the latex art community does not like me.
- I say this because my Art is Meh and I've irritated some of the big names of this community (Leave a comment if you want to know what I consider the "Latex Art Community"). And yes, I am fully aware that I am somewhat unknown at the moment.
2. My Art is meh...
- My art is not bad, but It is not good. I'm in a limbo between good and bad with my art.
3. I'm clumsy and slow with my requests and Trade pictures
4. The majority of my Art Trade and request idea have ranged from terrible to meh...
- Just ask :iconalenonimo: or :iconalodo:
5. I've had a rocky start
- I've already talked about the whole :iconflik182: is
. Good lord, is this because of the whole
issue? If so, then I knew it would come back to bite me in the ass. Might as well not even bother fixing it now. The damage has been done. But that is if this is in relation to the afford mentioned issue. Paranoia aside, I don't know how to fix the issue now. No one is willing to help me and I don't like turning people into messenger owls. It makes me feel like shit and an ass whole. Plus how do I know are people are going to be honest with me? All I want to do is apologize to KurtType5, tell him I was wrong in my actions, and show that I have suffered greatly. Is that too much to ask? Plus it is torture to have the paranoia of what he is thinking. Does he want to kill me for what I have done or is he thinking about forgiving me? 95% and logic says it's the first idea.
So why did I bring all this up? Well it's because of this one group I joined called Boys-in-latex
. The art they accept is self explanatory. You've all seen some of my art. It would be perfect for the group. But this is one of those groups that doesn't allow members to submit there deviations without permission. A couple of days ago I posted a comment saying that I have deviations I could submit. No one has responded to it yet. Now it could be that no one has seen it yet, but they have a lot of admins. Plus some deviations have been submitted recently.
I swear to god, if someone says "Your deviations aren't good enough...", You know what, that hit me right here ------>
Thanks for making me feel great about myself. My deviations aren't that bad. Sure, there a little rough around the edges, but at least I'm trying. I have a lot going on right now and it's hard to sit down and focus on learning how to get better. Having Autism does not help this at all. And there is people who like my drawings. I have 80 watchers for Pete's sake (give or take about 3).
if Worst comes to worst, I will make my own group. Why that choice? Because I can guarantee my reputation has certainly spread.
I seriously hope this isn't the case and it's just that no one has looked at my comment yet
Sorry for shoving a negative journal in your faces right after a positive one. But this issue can't go ignored."He will ride across land and time,
to find a way through this endless night.
There's a storm in his heart,
and the fire burns his soul.
But the wanderer's part is to ride alone."
(Lyrics from wanderer by Ensiferum)